Monday, December 21, 2009
1)Lost my new phone that is only less than 3 months old,
2)Lost my ezlink and admin card together with the phone
3)Screwed up my IAP presentation,
4)FYP sucks ******,
5)My friend's camera spoilt in my hand for no reason and a huge amount might be needed to fixed it,
6)Dropped my temporary handphone into the toilet bowl which i've only taken for a few days,
7)School fee has a %780 plus outstanding amount.
8)Lonely,lonely and more loneliness.
HAIZ.
I don't feel any better either, scolding me would only makes me feel worse.
I shall drown in my own sorrow.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[9:30 AM]
Friday, November 27, 2009
Industrial Attachment Program is FINALLY OVER!!
YEAH!!! But i do miss HBO A LOT. But thankfully, presentation is over, which is what i'm happy for.
Back to the busy school life.
Graduation day is only a few months away! YES! I want to graduate! I just want to graduate, faster, FASTER!
Hopefully my FYP goes smoothly.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[1:27 AM]
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Yesterday was one CRAZY day.
I sort of travelled around the whole Singapore.
With my cousins and friends.
First, went K box for K-lunch at Clementi. The food is yucky but luckily i managed to sing the songs I wanted.
Next, Suntec for waffle at the Waffle Place, Cottage, and actually our initial plan was to go for but the IT fair. But in the end, we went in for around 15 mins then we leave le. ZOMG crowded and stuffy.
Then, CHANGI. We wanted to go there to see airplane and Ah Gua and also have dinner. First, we had photo-taking session and also, dinner over there. We walked too much in the airport searching for the right food with a cheaper price to eat till we ended up eating at the Mcdonald's.=.='''
After eating, we think that its quite impossible to see the planes already cause its night time, thus we headed somewhere else.
Meanwhile, my family was dinning at Geylang, in some Hong Kong Tim Sum shop.( SO ENVIOUS, WHILE I'M HAVING JUST MCDONALD'S!)
Then they decided to go Mustafa center at Serangoon after that. We decided to join them so we left Changi for Serangoon.
At last, I got to visit Mustafa Center. First ever visit. First impression, its really one shopping center mainly for indian shoppers. It has a lot of stuff, household, food, clothes and more. But the uncomfortable thing is, its big but kind of squeezy. Cause the shelves and stuff are closely arranged to one another, leaving only small walking spaces in between. After buying the stuff( which is known to be cheaper ), we headed to...
ORCHARD! FOR CLUBBING!
ZOMG! MY FIRST CLUBBING EXPERIENCE!
First impression over there:
LOUD AND NOISY.
There are thai dancers dancing and live bands singing in that club and all of them are quite good-looking. haha..
Especially the Thai dancers, all have HUGE BOOBS. O.O
but i think they are all fakes. HAHA..
The bands are quite good too.
We drank and played games.
Its also quite messy cause there's fighting and quarreling.
Was a bit tipsy after that.
But i kind of like the experience, cause it seems that I'm inside another WORLD.
A world that has no troubles. You just need to enjoy yourself and immerse yourself in loud music. (I thought my ear drums were going to burst that time.)
Now i understand why people like to visit this kind of places.
And lastly, cabbed back to JURONG(my homeland).
Bathed and ZZZZZZZZZZZ.
HAHA, What a day.
and it shall remains as one of those memorable memories I have.=)
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[1:01 AM]
Friday, September 4, 2009
I'm happy NOT.
I think my relationship with people is getting screwed up at this point of time.
I feel like I've lost a few of the most important friends in my life, again.
Relationship with sister worsen, talking to her is like talking to a pig, SHE CAN NEVER EVER LISTEN TO WHAT I'VE SAID.
She thinks that what she's doing now is right. RIGHT!
Nevermind, one day she shall know her mistakes and REGRET.
I've been trying hard and hopefully i can achieve something in future.
Seeing her not putting in any effort in her life makes me frustrated.
We'll see one day.
PS: My photos that i've sent for the S.O.S competition are selected for exhibition at vivo city! ZOMG!
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[12:43 PM]
Friday, August 14, 2009
FINALLY! My holiday is here!
I can smell the air of FREEDOM!
This torturing semester has passed, and here comes my attachment.
I'm posted to a company that I've never ever though that i'll be posted to, cause its one of the better companies.
Home Box Office (HBO)
But, i shall jiayou! and enjoy the attachment time, and try to learn as much as i can.
GO GO JIAYOU!=D
PS: So gonna snap off my hair soon. next week.=)
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[7:41 AM]
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I think the most important factor in doing project work together is TRUST.
Its not the first time i'm feeling that my ability is doubted.
I know my own ability, i may not be as good but I'm willing to try.
But whatever, I just don't wanna the workload to be unfair.
I guess this is the difference between people. The better ones and me.
I can only say good luck to them.
But, one day i shall be somebody.
Just wait and see.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[10:59 AM]
Monday, August 10, 2009
A very nice story=)
The story of tree, leaf and wind.
Tree_______________
People call me “Tree”.
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U.
There is one girl who I love alot but never dared to go after.
She didn’t have a pretty face, goodfigure or an outstanding charm.
She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her.
I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her was thatI felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me.
I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish.
I was also afraid other’s gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she’d be mine ultimately & I didn’t have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years.
She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She was a good actor, and me a demanding director.
When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us.
She was embarrassed but smiled & said, “Go on!” before running off.
The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut.
I did not want to know what caused her to cry.
Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so.
My fourth girlfriend did not like her.
There was once when both of them quarreled.
I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel.
However, I still sided my girlfriend.
I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened.
I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out.
Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her.
I told her about my breakup.
Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together.
I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School.
I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.
Once I reached home, I could not breathe.
Tears rolled & I broke down.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp.
It said, “Leaf’s departure isbecause of Wind’s pursuit. Or because Tree didn’t ask her to stay”
Leaf_______________
People call me Leaf.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind.
However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learn a feeling I never should have learn – Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 months.
When they broke up, I hidmy happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me.
But why won’t he pursue me?
Since he loves me why he didn’t he make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.
After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love.
If he didn’t like me, why did he treat me so well?
It’s beyond what you will normally do for a friend.
I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can’t expect me a girl, to ask him.
Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side.
Care for him, accompany him, and love him.
Hoping that one day, he will come to love me.
Because of this, I waited for him.
Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting.
The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me.
Everyday he pursues me.
He’s like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree.
In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart.
I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land.
Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn’t ask me to stay.
Leaf’s departure is because of Wind’s pursuit. Or cause Tree didn’t ask her to stay.
Wind________________
Because I like a girl called leaf.
Because she’s so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind.
A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.
Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him.
When he talks with girls, there’s jealousy in her eyes.
When he looked at her, there’s a smile in her eyes.
Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn’t appear.
I felt something missing.
I can’t explain the feeling except it’s a kind of uneasiness.
The senior was also not there as well.
I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left.
The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him.
I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her.
She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, “Leaf’s heart is too heavy and wind couldn’t blow her away.”
“It’s not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree.”
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me.
But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic.
But I never give up.
If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over.
I can’t remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend.
I didn’t hear any reply from her over the phone.
I asked, “What are you doing? How come you didn’t want to reply?”
She said, “I’m nodding my head”.
“Ah?” I couldn’t believe my ears.
“I’m nodding my head” She replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn’t ask her to stay…
MoralIn love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.
There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss?
This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.
It's the beginning of a new life.
Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried.
For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.
A great love?
It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them.
It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you."
If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly.
Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.
Continuation.
Leaf's departure wasn't because of Wind's pursuit or Tree didn't ask her to stay.
Leaf's departure was because she needed an excuse to find the world of her own.
Wind- comes and goes freely. It may be a strong gust of wind that carries leaf away from tree but how long can wind carry her along his journey?
Leaf was carried away by wind but was also left alone by wind.
Without wind's pursuit or without tree asking her to stay, one day, leaf will also detach herself from tree. Not because of wind, but because she wants to grow into something more...
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[10:24 AM]
