Monday, March 30, 2009
I really hope that someday somebody will tell me that i don't have to keep trying so hard, i can just be what i want to be and don't care about what others think of me.
But in this practical world, Its IMPOSSIBLE.
Come on, face the fact man.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[10:11 AM]
I'm feeling so "HAIZ" now.
My family is collapsing due to the financial difficulties.
My dad become very hot-tempered.
He keeps throwing his temper on us.
We just had Macdonald's but it seems that eating Macdonald's now is a spendthrift thing to do.
Cause dad said that we didn't tell him the cheaper deal which is the student meal and he threw his temper on us.
I find him unreasonable and talked back. Then out of rage, he slammed a bowl.
I was shocked.
Why did my dad become like that?
As part of the family, we didn't expect much from our parents.
We downgrade from our own 4-room flat to a rental 2-room flat.
We once sat in an air-conditional car, but now we sat behind the smelly back of the lorry.
We didn't expect to go overseas every year; we didn't ask for a high-tech handphone or a PSP.
A meal with the family is more than enough. Cause when we sit together, memories flashes through our minds. We laughed about the stupidest thing that we did when we were young; talk about our parents dating past; the food that we misses; and those days...
I don't count myself unfortunate cause i know there's way lot of people who are even more unfortunate then me.
But i hope things can change.
I wanna give my parents and family a better living.
But it seems impossible.
I'm screwed at this point of my life.
I wanna help yet my help seems so insignificant.
I'm envious of those rich people.
Money is the most horrifying thing in the world.
It can tear a family apart and the damage is irreparable.
I just want my happy family back.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[9:35 AM]
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Primary School GatheringI've attend a primary school gathering recently at Vivocity and we catch up with one another about our current life and studies.All of them can't recognize me cause i can admit that i really changed a lot. But its ok, cause i know them=) One of my friend somehow remember me because of our height difference, he said, " Are you the one who is always very very tall and i'm the one who is always very very short beside you?" We burst into laughter when we heard that.
There's only 5 of us, but yet i think its more than enough. We went to catch a movie, the recent thai horror movie, Coming Soon. My friend suggested to watch that movie but he said that he's scared, he even said that why humans are so stupid cause they spend money to scare themselves. OK, all the while i'm screaming when the scary parts came and my friend who was sitting beside me always got a shock. She said that the movie is scary because there's me. HAHA! Oh ya, and that day, i realized that eating potato chips is better than munching nachos and popcorn when you are watching a movie.(Thanks Amin for smuggling in the potato chips!=D)
After the movie, we went to chit chat at a hawker centre. We laid out our primary school report book( cause one of my friend suggested us to bring and make it a tradition) and snapped pictures of them. We reminisced the old primary school days and all of us agree that primary school days were the best. Cause everybody was innocent and naive. There wasn't such thing as betrayal and there were no hypocrites. I've always miss my primary school life in Jurong Town Primary but i didn't know that actually there's more out there who misses it as much.
But sad to say, I don't have the chance to visit my primary school again, cause its closed down. I can only look at it whenever i walk past the pavement beside the school. How i wish i can go back and look at the places that i've ran about last time.
I felt happy, a heart-warming happiness that day.
TODAYI made Cheese Swirl Brownies with Adelene, my beloved secondary school friend! Ok, its our first attempt but it turns out not as bad.My family member says that they are delicious=) and i played with her nephew! He is such a cute boy~ He keeps nua and nua, i guess babies are like that. He loves to bite things, he just grabbed my finger and start biting! But luckily, his teeth are not grown out yet.
After that,i caught a movie with my family, Paul Blart: Mall Cop. This is a MUST watch man! Its really hilarious! Even my mum who doesn't really understand english commented that this is a great movie. Before watching the movie, my mum and us went to rock the arcade at Jurong Point! I'm glad and amazed that my mum actually plays the games! She's good at the street basketball man! Haha...
After today, I realized happiness can be simple.Baking a cake with your love ones, playing with a baby, playing arcade with your family, or even watching a comedy with your love ones.
Simplicity can just be as happy=)
oh ya, and the Pepper Lunch date with Meow(cathi)~ We are the pepper lunch buddies man! haha...I really had fun that day and we shall eat it again=)
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[11:11 AM]
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I
'm thinking, if i ever have the chance to meet him again, i want to be friends with him forever.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[5:45 AM]
