Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Life was simple and HAPPY before my poly life starts.I enjoy hanging out with my cousins during the holidays and even after that.I thought I would prefer poly life than secondary school life,but it seems that secondary school life was more lively.However,the stress mainly comes from the people around me in poly instead of the projects i have to rush it out for every friday's presentation each and everytime week.
Everything was alright during the first week of school.I LOVED my friends in poly and we had a CRAZY week.And i actually missed them alot during the first weekend.I dunno why,i went to work and i actually wanted to be with them badly.SO badly.
But everything kind of changed from week 2 onwards.My clique which consist of many people broke up into smaller cliques.I feel sort of left out after that split.
Just that i'm kind of having a STRAINED relationship with my friends in poly.I dunno why and I dunno what happened.
I nearly had a breakdown on this monday.They left.I was alone with a few of my other classmates.Then,was eventually alone in the cold classroom.I feel like crying that time.But i held my tears.I wanted to be alone that time actually.Cause i wanted to cry.I don't want to let anyone see me tear.
There's misunderstandings between us.
I NEED TO TALK,to them.
and,
PLEASE TALK TO ME,tell me what i've done wrong.
Life really seems Black and White to me now.I feel more and more depressed everyday now.Plus,what i actually got to know.I'm sad.
I went to play basketball with my cousins just now.One thing that i discovered is that i really LOVE them lots!They made me feel the bit of happiness out of all the depression i'm suffering from.They made me laughed and I laughed alot.They too made me cry before.But everything turned out to be fine through talks and explanation.
I had a HUGE arguement with one of my closest friends before.I told her her wrongs and she told me my wrongs.And everything was sorted out.We became closer after that.
I hope everything will turn out fine after the talks with my friends.I LOVED u guys and i want to continue LOVING u guys.
I'm a DEPRESSED zombie now.
WHATEVER,
Serene.
I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[12:59 PM]
