NOTHING LASTS FOREVER.

Monday, March 30, 2009

I'm feeling so "HAIZ" now.

My family is collapsing due to the financial difficulties.
My dad become very hot-tempered.
He keeps throwing his temper on us.
We just had Macdonald's but it seems that eating Macdonald's now is a spendthrift thing to do.
Cause dad said that we didn't tell him the cheaper deal which is the student meal and he threw his temper on us.
I find him unreasonable and talked back. Then out of rage, he slammed a bowl.
I was shocked.
Why did my dad become like that?

As part of the family, we didn't expect much from our parents.
We downgrade from our own 4-room flat to a rental 2-room flat.
We once sat in an air-conditional car, but now we sat behind the smelly back of the lorry.
We didn't expect to go overseas every year; we didn't ask for a high-tech handphone or a PSP.

A meal with the family is more than enough. Cause when we sit together, memories flashes through our minds. We laughed about the stupidest thing that we did when we were young; talk about our parents dating past; the food that we misses; and those days...

I don't count myself unfortunate cause i know there's way lot of people who are even more unfortunate then me.
But i hope things can change.
I wanna give my parents and family a better living.
But it seems impossible.
I'm screwed at this point of my life.
I wanna help yet my help seems so insignificant.
I'm envious of those rich people.
Money is the most horrifying thing in the world.
It can tear a family apart and the damage is irreparable.

I just want my happy family back.

I hope time can freeze during that moments.
[9:35 AM]